Plane Hopping and Bed Hopping
It's been a few days since I managed to get any length of time to myself in front of a web connection, so I haven't been keeping up with myself lately. Having run around the country back home catching up with many friends and loved ones, I am back in the Goldfish Bowl for a week, having booked the flights on a whim, with the assistance of the ever so suited to his nickname Nice Guy, who did the booking part, and paid for half of the flights.
Not only that, the sweet and thoughtful NG also booked a hotel for the night I arrived, as a very lovely surprise, so that we only had a few minute drive that night, instead of the two hour one I was expecting, and yesterday he arranged for us to go flying in a small plane with a friend who is a pilot, which was rather fantastic, and also totally unexpected. Spending time with him makes me so happy, I just want so much to give the same back. Must keep this one, oh yes.
I had been a bit nervous about coming back so soon, especially with the rather odd situation with T, and the old fashioned environment that means we are all still being very quiet about our relationship status, but it has been an absolutely wonderful few days, and promises to continue being so. It will be hard to leave again, but at least I know I will see NG again in march, when he comes to see me, which I am already looking forward to immensely, and I should be back out here again in June for a visit - I might not want to live here, but it is a gorgeous place to visit.
Tonight we are having a video night, that is myself, Nice Guy, and T, which I am really rather looking forward to. Feel a tiny bit guilty that it was meant to be T's night alone, but he made no noises objecting when I suggested it. Would like to stay over at his anyway, but I guess I will see how it goes. To some extent I have given up on the boy - I have said many times to him that I am always open to hear what he has to say, so if he wanted more time, or to do something different I would hope that he'd tell me, but I still suspect he would more likely think things and not say them. Still, it was nice that his response when I said I was coming back for a visit, and asked if he'd like to see me was 'That would be nice', rather than a worry or a grumble.
As long as T is happy, then I really couldn't care less what the rest of the Goldfish Bowl thinks.
Now that we are separated by a bit more distance, it is getting easier to remember the good things about my time with T, and what we loved about each other, rather than the negatives, and we have gone back to accepting each other as-is instead of trying to make changes. I am remembering why I loved him, and why I still do. I am grateful that even though we were breaking up in the sense of not wanting to be in a primary relationship any more, he has still done his best to be understanding and supportive and civil, even when we are arguing about details, as have I. It makes me feel so proud of both of us, that we have gone through so much difficult emotional stuff and still managed in some way to be there for each other, and not drag anyone else into our troubles either. It just brings home to me all the more why I loved him in the first place, and why I still want him in my life.
Gosh, it has taken me far too long to draft this, I have been meandering. Will probably be offline until I get back home, which will be monday - three flights in a week, that must surely make me part of the jet set! So here's looking forward to a good weekend!
Scarlet
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Not only that, the sweet and thoughtful NG also booked a hotel for the night I arrived, as a very lovely surprise, so that we only had a few minute drive that night, instead of the two hour one I was expecting, and yesterday he arranged for us to go flying in a small plane with a friend who is a pilot, which was rather fantastic, and also totally unexpected. Spending time with him makes me so happy, I just want so much to give the same back. Must keep this one, oh yes.
I had been a bit nervous about coming back so soon, especially with the rather odd situation with T, and the old fashioned environment that means we are all still being very quiet about our relationship status, but it has been an absolutely wonderful few days, and promises to continue being so. It will be hard to leave again, but at least I know I will see NG again in march, when he comes to see me, which I am already looking forward to immensely, and I should be back out here again in June for a visit - I might not want to live here, but it is a gorgeous place to visit.
Tonight we are having a video night, that is myself, Nice Guy, and T, which I am really rather looking forward to. Feel a tiny bit guilty that it was meant to be T's night alone, but he made no noises objecting when I suggested it. Would like to stay over at his anyway, but I guess I will see how it goes. To some extent I have given up on the boy - I have said many times to him that I am always open to hear what he has to say, so if he wanted more time, or to do something different I would hope that he'd tell me, but I still suspect he would more likely think things and not say them. Still, it was nice that his response when I said I was coming back for a visit, and asked if he'd like to see me was 'That would be nice', rather than a worry or a grumble.
As long as T is happy, then I really couldn't care less what the rest of the Goldfish Bowl thinks.
Now that we are separated by a bit more distance, it is getting easier to remember the good things about my time with T, and what we loved about each other, rather than the negatives, and we have gone back to accepting each other as-is instead of trying to make changes. I am remembering why I loved him, and why I still do. I am grateful that even though we were breaking up in the sense of not wanting to be in a primary relationship any more, he has still done his best to be understanding and supportive and civil, even when we are arguing about details, as have I. It makes me feel so proud of both of us, that we have gone through so much difficult emotional stuff and still managed in some way to be there for each other, and not drag anyone else into our troubles either. It just brings home to me all the more why I loved him in the first place, and why I still want him in my life.
Gosh, it has taken me far too long to draft this, I have been meandering. Will probably be offline until I get back home, which will be monday - three flights in a week, that must surely make me part of the jet set! So here's looking forward to a good weekend!
Scarlet
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